Ok, I'll confess

Oh my gosh. Some of you were so nice yesterday when commenting about the template. You said I looked great.

And that just about made me cry.

Summers are so hard for me. I can stay on track with the whole eating healthy and exercising thing during the school year because I'm kept busy with work and kids. Summers... not so much. I spend a lot of time sitting around. And there's the kitchen just steps away from the computer or living room.

This summer started out really badly. When we went to Disney, we were on the dining plan, where we got a dessert with every meal. The frugal part of me just couldn't let that dessert go to waste, so of course I ate it. I ate butter griddled pound cake, smores, chocolate ice cream... oh, the desserts I ate. We also got a snack every day. And often our snacks were magic bars (graham cracker crusts with chocolate and butterscotch chips) or pretzels sticks dipped in dark chocolate and rolled in pecans. They were amazingly good. I enjoyed every bite and did not allow myself to think about the calories.

I weighed myself the morning we left. And the morning after we got home. I gained nine pounds during the trip.

Not really off to a good start, was I?

Here's the scoop -- I'm sort of giving myself the summer off. I'm trying to eat healthy, but I'm not beating myself up if I slip up (and I slipped a lot the week the kids were gone, better this week). I'm getting 20-30 minutes cardio most days, and then 20-30 abs/toning most days. If I miss a day here and there, I don't stress.

So thanks so much for telling me how good I look. That's my whole goal. I still haven't lost a pound of those 9 pounds I gained. I'm toning, though, and choosing clothes that fit better (because don't you think that's a lot of it... just choosing clothes that look good on you? Like buying a L instead of the XXL that I used to buy so I could hide inside it). And I'm really liking myself right now, and trying not to beat myself up about those 9 pounds that I know I had a heck of a great time putting on. I figure if I'm loving myself, maybe it's showing through in my photos and in my life.

Comments

[Carol]

Oh definitely don't beat yourself up, especially on special occasions like your fabulous holiday. You still have to live, and the best part of it all is that you realize. How many times do we go through life, look in the mirror and say "how on earth did that happen?". So to even post that you know is a plus in my books.

Love your blog, I read right through it and looked at all your beautiful layouts yesterday.